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A Fulltime M/s relationship  So if you don't wanna hear what I have been masturbating to and thinking about a lot then stop right now. If you are Master keep reading anyhow please :). Current mood: devious. Well, I think that I can actually try this again. After talking some things out with Master about what I want to post and what should/shouldn't be posted about, deciding in my head whether or not I can live with that, and catching up... at least for the most part at work, I have decided to rejoin the LJ chatting. I was having a hard time because Master and I had decided not to post much info about our dating here as we were sending potentials to our LJ to see what our lives were like. Lately we haven't been doing that and actually we discussed that me talking some things out on here might actually help as usually my real life acquaintences give good advice. So I will talk about some things on here and keep others silent and see if I can get what I need while not sounding like I am complaining. So if my LJ's start sounding more like complaining that asking for/ seeking advice or just some sympathy or encouragement then let me know. Well hopefully sometimes they just talk about successes too. I am a procrastinator. I put things off until I must absolutely must get them done, and then because of how nervous I am about getting them done, they take even longer and sometimes Master says enough and then they just don't get finished. I have this issue mostly with work stuff. I hate it , hate the job, the company, and most of what they ask me to do. I think that there are several of them that are unethical and in turn that makes me have to either do, cover up for, or ignore things that I find appaling. So I procrastinate on the work, but it doesn't hurt them, it only hurts me, my time with Master, and my students. I put a lot into my job because I feel like I must in order to really make a difference. You see I went into teaching because I had bad teachers and didn't realize that work was "hard" and that being smart didn't get you anywhere until I got to college. My first college math class (taken as a senior in high school) made me cry. I had never cried in math before, it was my favorite subject and one I always did well in without trying. Then i hit College Algebra's word problems. What the hell did all of those words mean and why didn't the problem just ask in plain English. I struggled for 2 years of college, trying to decide what to become as I wasn't enjoying anything in college that I thought would be lots of fun and excitement and because I didn't want to "teach" that was for those that were lazy and couldn't find a better paying job. When I finally did decide, I applied and made it in to the following terms class (they only accept 60) and started working on an Elementary Education degree. I made enemies among some of my classmates because I did my best always along with a few other of my friends/classmates. I knew that what I did would affect someone else eventually forever and I remembered my dad telling me that it was okay to do poorly on something that only affected me but when it affected someone else I had to give it my best or not do it at all. I still have that same philosophy with teaching as in most things in my life, and still it gets me some enemies more so at this job than any other place before. This job seems to encourage the disagreement and conflict between teachers. But I can't do any less than what I do, unless Master orders me too, which I must admit at times he does. I have really struggled with the thought of working again next year. I do not want to work in a place where ethics and accountability are so lacking, where teachers can act horribly and be rewarded, where students needs are put second to the egos of teachers and parents. No one seems to think about the long term effect any of the decisions will have on the student. I even gave in and succumbed to the FCAT drama this year, pushing my kids to practice, practice, practice... something I am horrified and disgusted over. Our search has slowed down although not by choice. It seems the more and harder we look the less there seem to be out there. We have dated some interesting people in the last few months. We dated a wonderful girl that was everything we could have asked for in a slave and roommate but there was no chemistry. She was pleasant, cheerful, wasn't a pain to have around the house for more than a few hours at a time, and was helpful. The chemistry just wouldn't come and that it seems can't be forced. We met another girl that is kinky as all get out, her and Master have a lot of common interests, actually other than her girly parts she is more male than female, she likes the same movies, music, and activities that he does, and she even plays WOW like we do. She had some health issues but they seemed not intrusive. On her second weekend with us, she breaks down and says that she can't commit to a relationship that would tie her down and that she would never ever be able to be a slave, just the thought of it made her want to run. She wants a poly relationship in which she has lots of lovers but isn't actually committed to any of them (and that isn't even describing it correctly but I don't know how exactly to describe it). We still see her and have play weekends but with the knowledge that it is leading no where but play. Then there is the other that really wants to be a slave but has very little experience with any of the play that we do and doesn't like what she has tried so far which are some of our biggest play things (spankings, and nipple torture). She confessed to me that she was not completely bi, that she would do whatever her Master told her to do though and then when we asked her together about it, she said that I had misunderstood her. WE are continuing to explore that one. We had a date with her last week, our 5th, and we finally ended up in the room for some play/snuggle, possibly sex. She helped me play with Master a little (both of us thought it would relax her) while he was completely nude and I was just in a robe (she stayed completely dressed). Then I undressed and lay down on the massage table for a turn at a massage, spanking, and orgasm. We then asked if she would like a turn and she said no. We have another date tomorrow which will hopefully go more smoothly. If anyone knows of any kinky, slave minded single women please let us know. SO anyway, how has everyone been? I like the questions game and if anyone has anything they want me to answer, send it my way. Hugs to all and to my rl friends I can't wait to see ya soon. Camp in June. Master and I are off to Barbados for 9 days on Friday and then maybe my family for Good Friday. Current mood:  bouncy.
Leaving for Camp tomorrow... We will be back home late SUnday night so I won't be back online for a while. Master leaves for a conference on TUesday so Monday will be spent getting him ready and catching up at work. Pouts he gets to go to Daytona for a week while I work... THinking I am driving up on Friday after work to enjoy the lovely beach and relax in a hotel for two nights and a day ...... YEAH for camp. YEAH for a wonderful Master that just got me a kick ass new computer and monitor and upgraded his laptop so that now I have one of my very own. YEAH>>>>> FOOTBALL.... That is alll just football. Watching the Redskins now. My team starts on Sept. 4th against Miami in Miami... Hmmm a Monday night game but in Miami.... Okay so Friday morning I had my caning/spanking scene with nvisiblegrrl which was great. Then I went back to the cabin to see what else I could get up to. It took me a minute to recoup as I had hit endorphin bliss during the spanking/caning. I got back and Venus asked to see my list again, and went into discussion mode with some of the girls from the cabin. I had already negotiated two scenes with two of them that had to be done sometime that day when had time. I must say after the caning/spanking and my two wonderful experiences withnvisiblegrrl I was really into camp and having a blast. The list was becoming more and more exciting to me and I was trying at this point to really get it finished by Friday night. Not just to have it done and over with but because I was really getting into it and I wanted to see just how much I could do and I also wanted the unlimited orgasms. Unlimited orgasms rock. So sometime before lunch (I know that my other part said I went to lunch first but in looking back all of this happened before lunch, my mind gets a little blurry because of the endorphins and fun I was having). So I am in front of the cabin with lots of spectators and Everready and I do some 69. She had a wondefully wet and hot mouth and made me cum. I tried very damn hard to make her cum but it seems she needs more than mouth stimulation to make her cum. I promised to repay the favor later. After that WildThing uses her strap-on on me. I have never had a girl use a strap-on on me before so pop went another cherry. It was actually really good. She put me in my favorite position for sex when I am on bottom and fucked me wonderfully giving me an orgasm and making me want to fuck even more. I spanked Venus, another first or at least spanking a woman by myself. It was a lot of fun. She was standing leaning against the tree and I was using my hands and a few of my favorite paddles on her. She gave me a few pointers to make the spanking last longer and be more pleasurable. I have since used them on someone else and they are wonderful new techniques. I ended up popping one of the blood vessels in the middle of my palm while spanking her but had a grand time. After this Kinky Sadist helped the girls stake me out in front of the cabin. When they got me tied down so that I couldn't get lose tied spread eagle, about 6 girls decided to tickle me. I tried so damn hard to not show any emotion and to not giggle. I fought and struggled both on the inside to keep my giggling in and on the outside trying to get away. I swear that they tickled me for what felt like forever. I kept losing my breath from giggling. They were wonderful and I had a blast. Tickling has this wonderful effect on me, it makes me get really wet and really damn horny. Finally I convinced them that I had had enough and most of them moved away, scared of the retaliation I guess, lol. Someone finally let me lose and i went inside to clean up and get ready for a strap-on in the ass. I talked to M a little about the scenes so far. He had seen the beginning of most of them but had then gotten distracted by someone and gotten involved in his own scenes. So we needed to discuss them and my feelings about them so far, which were all great. They had all been wonderful first experiences that left me wanting more but satisfied at the same time. Thinking I will be doing a lot more of most of these. By the time I was ready for anal sex with a strap-on, everyone was starving and it was lunch time. So the cabin headed off to the pool and lunch. It took M and I a little bit as we got a little distracted along the way, I think we ended up having sex first as both of us wanted another orgasm or two. We went to get lunch and then made our way to the pool. I stripped to get in and was waiting on the raft to pick me up because the water was way cold when M pushed m in head first. When I got up and got over trying to pull him in too, I jumped into the middle of the raft of sex. M stripped soon after and got in too. He stayed in the pool for a little while. A really sexy lady from our cabin jumped up on the edge of the raft with her ass in the air so I just leaned over (this was already prenegotiated just not the when) and rimmed and tonguefucked her ass. She ended up getting an orgasm from the group. We were then just all hanging out, the raft people kept changing a little and I leaned over and moved Kinky Sadist out of the way to attack Venus. She had me suck and bite on her leg before I gave her an orgasm with my mouth. She apparently enjoyed it a lot and asked me to teach KS something that I did at the end. That was really cool and gave me a little more confidence in my skills (I had only ever made one other girl cum like that). We continued hanging out in the pool until eventually I got way to cold and had to get out. I was almost finished with my list and it was just barely 3. I had to make one more woman cum and either do another complete thing on my list or fuck a girl with my strap-on. We all ended up back at the cabin, M and I tried taking a nap as we both needed a little sleep. We got a short one but not a full deep sleep nap. When we woke up the cabin was trying to get ready for the Mardi Gras night and we had new cabin mates joining us. More attendees were showing up at camp and there was more people to say hi too and catch up with. Finally caught up with someone that I had already negotiated a scene with and gave her a yummy orgasm on the massage table, while M had her head in his lap and her boy hung out and watched/ chatted with other cabin mates. I so enjoyed meeting her and getting to know her better, I already knew her boy and think he is wonderful. I love playing with him so found it great that I enjoyed her so much. I had one thing left to do so I put on my strap on and grabbed a beauty. She seemed a little resistant until I grabbed lube and put in on her cunt. She then bent over and just sat there waiting on me. I teased and fucked her slowly while M gave me pointers in my ear (remember this was my first time using my strap-on on a girl). The cabin was chatting around us and somehow the beaut decided that she could talk too. SOmeone was talking about fucking her ass and she started pouting about how no one wanted to fuck her cunt. This brought out the real top in me and I started fucking her harder and spanked her ass at the same time telling her how I was fucking her cunt calling her an ungrateful bitch.... Suddenly I had everyones attention and they were chanting my name. It was great. I got into my Bitchy Top mode and was in it all for me at that point not caring if she really enjoyed it or not anymore just enjoying fucking her (of course I also knew in the back of my mind that she was as she was making wonderful sounds. Her face was buried in a cunt and licking back and forth between it and the balls that were hanging out on top of it. It was great. Finally she had a wonderful orgasm and I stopped. M took over for me and started fucking her too. It was not even 8:00pm, I hadn't been at camp for a full 24 hours yet and I had completed my list. It was great. M finally realized that I had finished my list and came over to congratulate me. We spent some time sitting and chatting about my list, my feelings, and how things went. We discussed rewards and the other scenes that I had planned for me individually, scenes we wanted to do together as co-Tops with others, and scenes that he wanted to do without me. It was then time for teh MardiGras parade. We sat there trying to collect beads.... LOL M kept showing his chest and got only 1 and I was just chatting not really participating and en ded up with 3, one of which I gave away to a really cute girl with sexy tits..... We ended up going to bed around midnight that night. I was wiped out from all of the physical and emotional energy used up during the day. I will write about Saturday and SUnday soon.... Current mood:  bored.
As most of you already know (or at least those of you that were at LR know) I had a list to complete at camp. Part of it was a training list and the rest was a to do list in order to earn the privilege of going to Dark Odyssey in Sept. I am going to just write out the list first and then explain some of them and give descriptions about what I did.
Current mood:  horny.
So I really need to update this. I have to tell all about the honeymoon and then about Leather Retreat. Camp was kick ass and there is much I want to share. I will soon. We are visiting with M's family and tomorrow they should be out so hopefully I will have time to pull out my list and write away then. I also have pics to share from the wedding and such but am not sure how to post any of them except for as a user pic. Oh well. I will try to figure it out tomorrow. Hugs to all. Shay Current mood:  tired.
Today was more than I ever thought. It was beautiful and filled with laughter and joy. Well there was one moment when I got all teary eyed or maybe two. The first was when my aunt asked for a pic with me and she was crying (she was like a big sis to me growing up and I even lived with her for a while when I had problems with my parents) and the other was when we were sitting at the table eating cake at the reception and Master called me his wife. I don't know why that made me cry but it did. We had a wonderful day and weekend. We leave first thing in the morning for our honeymoon and will then head immediately to LR to spend some time with some wonderful scene friends. Hopefully the first of July I will have some pics to post. Current mood:  ecstatic.
Saturday evening, I was a little of an emotional wreck. Wedding crap was getting to me, we have less than two months and there is still a lot to be done. I didn't need something that was taken care of falling apart so that I had to fix it too. This left me a little out of the play mood and Master understood but was also a little frustrated with why I was letting it get to me so much. So he snuggled/cuddled me on the couch before taking me back in the bedroom for a very light scene involving bondage and a teasing fucking. I had to beg before finally being allowed one orgasm, which is unusual as usually I end up with at least 3 during a fucking session. WE stayed up until a little after 2 on Saturday and when we did go to sleep, we were both tired and for the most part satisfied. Sunday we woke up early again both horny and snuggly. Master gave me a great teasing wake up without letting me cum and I reciprocated the attention until he came. We then got up and had breakfast before retiring to the computers to digest. After digesting for about an hour and a half, we went to the bedroom for more play. I got tied up using 4 pieces of rope and a spreader bar. My knees were pushed up to my chest with my hands tied to my ankles, the spreader bar was under my knees to keep me from stretching out as there was rope attached to it and my knee and my hands/ankles wwere also tied to it. IT took a while to get me tied up enough that I wouldn't accidentally slide out during a wiggle scene (my thumb folds in and makes my hand the same size as my wrist which allows me to get out of most bondage, I have to remind myself not to struggle out unless we are playing that game). Once I was tied up, Master pushed me onto my back with my knees/legs up in the air and attached clothespins to my anus, cunt and nipples. I don't know how many but I know they hurt like hell. He put them on my anus and then cunt before going to the nipples. Usually I can't take them long on my breasts/nipples but I didn't even feel them as the ones on my anus and clit hurt so much. It didn't help that Master kept hitting then ends of them with something. Finally I begged prettily enough to get him to pull them off (I had actually shed a few tears by that time). Then while I was still all tied up, He lubed up my cunt and tried fisting me while using a finger in my ass. I finally begged to cum but He didn't let me just then. Eventually he let me cum once before untying me and fucking me into another orgasm. I then fucked him until He came before we drifted off into a nap. Later in the evening, we played again. This time with ginger. He tied me up spread eagle face down on the bed and then went and brought back the cutting board, a knife, and fresh ginger. He cut it in front of me, all the while me begging him to please not. He then put a small piece in my ass and left to put away the mess. I clinched my ass checks as it burned a little. I eventually tried to relax them but found that the more they relaxed the worse it burned. So I kept them clenched pretty tight. When Master returned he donned gloves, lubed up my cunt and finger fucked me with the ginger in my ass. I eventually begged him to please take the ginger out and to let me cum. He let me cum with the ginger in my ass and then removed it. He untied me rolled me over and continued to finger fuck my cunt and ass telling me that I could cum when he removed his finger from my ass. I got so excited I was begging a lot before he finally removed his finger. After a brief cool down period, He started again with more fingers in my cunt. This time I got to cum when he put his finger in my ass. It was just hanging out around my anus teasing me as his fingers teased my cunt. Eventually I got to cum again. Then I fucked him and he allowed me to cum 5 more times before I could make him cum. It was wonderful. We have continued with the teasing since the weekend ended. We had more sex on Sunday night but because of work and family/friend obligations, we never got around to playing again on Sunday night. Current mood: tired.
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